Have Faith In My Blog

It is finally time for the end of the school year and the ending to my creative writing class.

This classroom has definitely changed a whole lot since the beginning of the year. I remember walking into this fun classroom everyday with my regular writing journal where I stuffed all of my thoughts and writing topics. I wrote what was going on in my life or how I was feeling that certain day. Some days they were super happy and filled with jokes from class periods before, then other days would just be straight venting in my journal. I enjoyed the days where we just watch movies and  sometimes not even review them, but just watch them for fun. When I walked into this class I had no clue that one person in this class would eventually become my best friend and never knew how funny and creative other people in this class could be. Some people unfortunately left this class since the beginning of the year, but they missed out. I was super stoked when we got the Blog assignments and started working with computers because I enjoy typing and sharing my experiences and thoughts with others. I also have this bright orange laptop with some of my favorite stickers on, that I am currently making this post with right now, and I hardly had a purpose for it until this class gave it a purpose… so thanks.

This class and the assignments that went with it, taught me how to open up my horizons and use deeper and more meaningful language when I write. I learned more sense words and how to describe set pieces with more proper vocabulary, like I’m trying to sound smart right now. Just wanted to share a last thank you to this class for being super fun and chill, but also teaching me some meaningful and useful things.

This post is inspired by the 2018-2019 Blackman High School yearbook and is dedicated to my first year and experience at Blackman High.

First Day

I remember the day I walked into the front of the school on my first day. I was filled with joy to see the welcoming signs, cheerleaders and kind new faces to guide me in. At the same time, I was terrified. Terrified I would be to scared to meet new people and make new friends. Luckily, being in soccer got me to know some people walking in. I knew the first day would be a breeze and would just be the introducing of teachers and supplies we needed, that sort of stuff. The day went by fast and I couldn’t believe I was officially starting the next most important years of my life.

First Pep- Rally

When it comes to pep rally’s I differed from other students who had gone to Blackman or Rockvale Middle…. I had never been to a pep rally before. In Arizona we didn’t get the opportunity to go to pep rally’s or have certain events in a large gym. So, walking into my first pep rally was a whole new world. I didn’t know a single chant, even though I wanted to, and I had never seen so many students in one space. I misjudged the size of the gym for sure. It no longer had its wide or narrow space, it was covered with cheerleaders, dancers, football players, drum lines, staff, and students from every grade. I felt small.

First Home Football Game

Same as pep rally’s, we didn’t have football games or even a football team at my Middle school in Arizona. All we had was some sports and lots of music. Being a Freshman and my first pep rally, I wanted to do everything and be as basic as possible. Me and my friend Megan walked into the parking lot by the football field and saw some students with bright orange paint, I was immediately interested. We walked up and asked what was going on and they said, “We are painting for school spirit. Want some dots on your face?” I couldn’t pass up the opportunity. We got the dots and walked up to the stand to purchase our tickets. I’m a fan of football but I knew that my friends would keep me distracted, and they did. We had the best time laughing and eating food we shouldn’t be.

I hate to say goodbye to Blackman High School next year, but I just wanna say thank you for treating my first year right and giving me the best memories. I’ll never forget the first of anything. I’ll also enjoy playing against Blackman next year and hopefully dominate in soccer.

I believe there are many intense and descriptive words you could use to describe the school year this year in wonderful 2019. With days you jump with joy or times you just want to curl up into a ball of stress and cry. To the dumb things my friends say that makes me laugh and some of the unexplainable drama that comes with it.

1. “Life is full of disappointments, get used to it.”
2. “There is no elevator to success. You have to take the stairs.”
3. S.C.H.O.O.L~ Seven Crappy Hours Of Our Lives
4. “High School is like a spork: it’s a crappy spoon and a crappy fork, so in the end it’s just plain useless.”
5. “If you don’t like where you are, then change it. You are not a tree.”
6. “Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can’t rain forever.”
7. “Only real friends tell you when your face is dirty.”
8. “A good day is a good day. A bad day is a good story. At the end of the day, it’s all good.”
9. “As long as there is Algebra there will be prayer in school.”
10. “Dear Math, go buy a calculator and solve your own problems. I’m a teenager, not a therapist.”

I have faith.

Faith that one day I will be great,

I want to be the best I can be.

To reach my goals

and to be who no one thought I could be.

I have faith.

Faith that I will help others

I wish to help those who can’t help themselves

I have faith.

Faith that my friends and loved ones will stand by me,

through the thick and thin.

With every bone in my body,

I will use my strength to get where I wish to be.

 

If you are ever feeling any type of stress or just need to have some calm time to yourself, these steps are perfect for a relaxing time. These steps truly apply to me, but some may also be good and apply to you.

1. I don’t know about anyone else, but the one thing that truly relaxes me is a soothing bath. Prepare your water to a warm(burning) temp or until just to your liking. If you have long hair just throw that thing up in a messy bun and slowly but surely ease into the bath. Maybe put in a bath salt or bath bomb to produce a nice scent, or a candle.
2. Play your favorite music that you prefer to calm you. Something that you can close your eyes to in the bath and forget about all your worries and think of nothing else but the bath and the music. I personally listen to songs that are more slow tempo and not as fast also known as a “head banger”.
3. After you have stayed in the bath for as long as you please, dry off and maybe put on a soft and sensible lotion slowly until it fully dissolves into your skin. If you do not own a lotion try a body spray or temporary perfume.
4. Head into your closet or drawers and find the comfiest outfit ever! Just put on maybe a t-shirt and some sweatpants or sports shorts (depends on room temp).
5. Lastly. My favorite step is more calm music and just laying in bed. Maybe try some relaxing activity like yoga or if you are a reader try reading a nice book. You could write something whether it be a song, story, poem, or even a BLOG post.

I’ve learned that friends really come and go. I had a serious conversation with a very trusting adult of mine about some conflict and issues me and my friends were having. I asked explained to him how some of my closest friends abandoned me and wanted space from me. I obviously was confused and feeling hurt that my friends felt this way, but he gave me some very wise information. He said, “Friends come and go and some friendships don’t last forever. Till this day I only talk to about 3 friends from when I was in High School. The ones that truly care about you and love you will stick around the longest.” I thought to myself about the people in my life or in my friend group that I know would never switch up on me and would always love me.

We don’t plan for these things to happen like get into fights with our best friends, or get caught up in the wrong drama. We don’t plan to break any friendships we have, but it happens all the time. Every single friend you have is not perfect some far from it, but we don’t point out their flaws or make them feel bad about themselves ever. We lift them up, be a shoulder for them to cry on, be someone they can tell jokes to and spend majority of their time with. I finally realized that sometimes what you see as your not as close friends, will be the closest friends you will ever receive. You don’t need to be exactly the same, you don’t need to go to the same school, or even live in the same state or country. A best,close, friend is someone who you will always be there for and never drift apart from them no matter what happens. If they make a bad decision in their life, don’t bash on them for it just be there to help them pick their life back up when it falls.

Sometimes friend groups can be challenging when you don’t get along with other distant people in your group. Some conflicts can change the way your friends think of you or the way you think of your friends. It can alternate how you all hang out together. For example, after me and one of my friends got into a heated argument our whole friend group changed. We no longer sat with each other in the mornings or at lunch, we didn’t say hello in the halls, didn’t text anymore. I was fine with the way things were playing out, but then the more time went by it ended up hurting me. I hate having conflict so when there is conflict I do my best to fix it, and that’s what I did. Basically the moral of this post is to share a few things about high school friendships.

No matter what you say or how you treat me, I will always be a TREASURE. I am worth every second of every day. I am not just a medal you magically win and wear around your neck for a little while then just take it off and place it some place where you will never touch it again. I am a diamond ring that you should wear on your finger and never take it off. I am not a new activity that you just really wanted to try, but then it just gets to challenging so you give up. That just isn’t who I am. I don’t give up when things get hard and when you see me put in my absolute all, even rip my heart out of my chest just for you, then you should automatically know that I am in it till the end of time. I can not just be a new pair of shoes you buy, but never ever wear them. Maybe if I put the label on my face that read, “Don’t Play With My Heart…. I’m Fragile.” you would have gotten the idea that iv’e been broken before and all I truly want is to be treated like a TREASURE.

I am like a flower or a pet that needs tender love and care, to be taken care of carefully and wisely. I want to be able to be the exact same for you and be by your side through the thick and thin, but you can’t leave me being the only one putting in the effort. I want to be able to be the one to pick you up when you fall and be the one to keep you in line with the good. To be truly a part of you and be your life line… I thought I was. I want to just be something that you just simply can’t live without. Not a piece of trash you just throw away or something you just put on a fake smile for… I want to be your TREASURE.

My childhood has been officially reborn with Disney’s live remakes of the best Disney movies of all time. While sitting on the couch the TV catches my attention when my eyes widen as I watched that little star travel across the screen above the magical and iconic castle filled with my hopes and dreams. These remakes can either go incredibly wrong or they can be the best remakes ever created. The classic movies they are choosing to remake are Dumbo, The Lion King, Aladdin, Little Mermaid, and they are choosing to come out with another addition to the Toy Stories series named making it the 4th making. I enjoy the remakes I have had the pleasure to watch so far.

The reason these remakes and movies hit me so hard is because it was one of the only fun and bright aspects of my childhood. Me and my mom recently played a game in which we would take turns playing songs from different Disney movies and the others part was to name the title of the movie in which the song was from. I could name every single one my mom thought would be a “challenge” for me. I was not challenged, not even slightly. My by far favorite Disney movie ever created is The Lion King, which happens to be one of the chosen few that Disney has decided to recreate. I promise you one thing, that the second the movie theater tickets go on sale for The Lion King… I will be the first one in line to buy them. If no one wants to go with me, I will gladly go by myself. I would never miss it for the world.  Gregoire Dubois via Compfight

This playlist is created to pump me up or aka get me super hyped before one of my soccer games or practices. This is not a recommended playlist for trying to fall asleep or calm down, it’s meant to get your blood pumping so you feel a large rage in your system. This playlist is called GET READY.

1. Needed Me by Rihanna- This song is my inspiration of being on the team reminding me that the team needs me.
2. B**h Better Have My Money by Rihanna- Basically relates to what I want and no one will stop me.
3. Boss by Lil Pump- Just describes who I am, a straight boss!
4. Bounce Back by Big Sean- Shows that if I fall or make a mistake I will get back up and keep going
5. Lean Wit Me by Juice WRLD- Just follow my lead and rock wit’ me
6. Save That S**t by Lil Peep- If my team falls or I’m in the goal getting ready to save the ball, imma save that
7. Trap Queen by Fetty Wap- I am and will always be a queen on the field
8. Envy Me by Calboy- When I am doing great on the field and others are slacking, they envy my skills and agility
9. Hard Work Pays Off by Juice WRLD- This one is just self said, but I will work so hard for so log until I reach my goals and dreams
10. Scorpion Album by Drake- Every single song in this album gets me ready

To the ones who think they aren’t worth the time and love someone is willing to give. For the girls who don’t like the way they look or feel. You are beautiful. You are kind, smart, and pretty. But especially, you are strong. There are days where us girls want to give up or have those nights where we fall asleep with tear drops printed on our pillows because of what someone said about you or how insecure you feel For when we are constantly looking at the mirror listing all of the things we wish to change, having more and more reasons to hate ourselves. Yet really, we just came come to terms of how amazing and beautiful we actually are. We physically can’t boost our own self esteem which is why the people around us matter so much. Don’t be around the ones who always down grade you and make you feel worthless, hang with the ones who bring you up and make you feel special because you are special. You are bright and wonderful and the people around you light up every time you are around. And trust me I know life is hard and there may be things happening at home and you have to put on a fake smile just so no one asks what is wrong, but sometimes it is okay to not be strong for a day or so. Let your true colors show, let your feelings go. Cause you are beautiful.